Eu sou, Eu sou

Posted: June 3, 2012 in Uncategorized



Jabu the Damaja

Posted: May 12, 2012 in Uncategorized

The following was originally a response to a discussion on Spiriuality/Religiosity, Atheism and Agnosticism. I was informed that my use of “Spiritual Agnostic was incorrect. And was given the proper definition of the various stances on “God”:Image

I guess I’d be a Gnostic Theist.
But, I can’t commit to that because I dont believe in an anthropomorphic deity per se. There was a time when I wanted to believe in God more than I actually believed in God. As these discussions continue I feel I’m headed more back in that direction. While not nearly as extreme as a creationist, my “God” is also sort of a “God of the gaps”; where things are unknown God fills in (i.e. origins of the Universe). Although, it’s a bit more complicated.
I never like to personify God as I dont feel it is a singular being per se. I played around a lot with ideas of God and consciousness in my…early twenties, often with the company of the Lovely Mary Molta. There were interesting experiences, interesting to encounter like-minded people- be it my brother, random 5%ers, or people on YouTube with “alternate” ideas on “Divinity” and consciousness.  One more than one occasion, I was struck by the similarities between my beliefs, and those I encountered (for the first time).

One of the things that kept me from arriving at Atheism was a belief that there was evidence of consciousness beyond the physical. Much of this evidence may be anecdotal, but I always found it hard to believe that all of these people were either drastically misunderstanding their experiences or simply lying (or fabricated by the media producers). Be it people on TV, the internet, or (although 2a much lesser extent) people I personally knew I was convinced that our minds are much more complex than we know (or for some, believe).haven't read this just liked the pic:

I was always intrigued by psychics and mediums, Astral travel, and Remote viewing (which the US Government has researched and utilized for intelligence work) as well as the unfamiliar mental territory revealed through Lucid Dreaming.  To me, these things indicated something ‘beyond’. BUT- that “beyond” is up for debate. So I theorized— I communed with the ancestors and the “Gods” over the sacrament of the sages;)

Funny thing, after finding so many strikingly similar ideas, I asked myself, “Could this be “God” leading me to the answers? Is this God a being, or just a source of knowledge, consciousness? I lean towards the latter.

[sidenote sort of] I told one Facebook friend that, actually God spoke to me and told me the Bible was not the word of God(no personification there;). So I don’t “doubt his word” as she says, because “he” told me he didn’t say that shit(Those weren’t my words exactly) but unfortunately she never replied. I thought that would be an interesting point to get the word of a Christian (or Abrahamian) on. Because…idk the Bible is filled with God’s contact with Man, and I’ve known Christians to say God spoke to them, so what of my contact with God? Will you try to deny me that? Probably a futile effort that would be responded to with scripture (relevant or not- but of course not personal expression). I imagine some would take that as a joke but Im open to the possibility of….psychic revelations. But there may be a thin line between that and..just (good?) Ideas.

My faith is very much informed by ration and knowledge.

As such, I may some day, become atheist, never know. My first understanding of “Agnostic” (picked up somewhere on campus during undergrad) was one that felt unmoved, unaffected and/or unconvinced by/of the existence of God(s). Later I was given the definition of feeling that the existence of a God was simply unknowable and that God has never been revealed to humanity in any verifiable way (and never will/can be?). I believed that. I felt that there could be a God, but these people don’t have the exclusive scoop on It!

If you believe humanity literally began with two people , and the earth was made in 7 days – there’s not a lot of room for growth. I’ve been curious about the origins of the universe for some time but especially the last 5yrs or so. Theoretical Astro-physics; String theory,membrane theory, multi-verse fascinating (That’s why I LOVE Fringe btw).Image


Our UNIVERSE could be the result of colliding membranes…where? What? We’re so fucking insignificant to the immeasurable…vastness of…Existence. Time is relative, dimensions we can’t (readily) experience o__o ? Reality is some crazy shit!

Given all that unknown – I can’t claim to know that there is or isn’t a “God”, But I do think it is knowable – even if we all kill each other before we ever find out.

Aside  —  Posted: March 26, 2012 in Uncategorized
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Capoeira-inspired search influenced bya facebook discussion on Heaven and Hell-

I’m always intrigued by our enslaved ancestors’ spiritual beliefs – sometimes I have to pause thinking of that life:

The Kikongo word for “threshold between worlds” is Kalunga. For people of Africa who ended up in the slave trade ports of New Orleans and Charleston, the Kalunga Line was specifically the Atlantic Ocean.[1] They believed the soul after death traveled the path of the sun as it set in the west. The enslaved believed they were being taken to the land of the dead, never to return. Thus the Kalunga line became known as a line under the Atlantic Ocean where the living became the dead and the only way back to life was to recross the line. Some religions today still make reference to the Kalunga Line believing that the soul of an African-American travels back to Africa upon death and re-enters the world of the spiritually living although the body has passed on.Image


not so much emphasized in our club but in my readings on African Martial Traditions the Kalunga served a pivotal role in the training of warriors. The inversion of the body- head and hands to the ground, feet up- was seen as a way of appealing to the spirit world, to 

Aside  —  Posted: March 13, 2012 in Uncategorized


Posted: February 3, 2012 in Uncategorized

bBaby all Im sayin is, that the coals are warm
I got some air in my lungs and I could blow it on em
we could get that fire goin- youKnow itd be warm and nice
butI just dontKno quite how long we could keep it right
I wanna be anOptimist- and say “u never know”
but ImproblyLyin cuz I seen it at least two time befo’
uGet emotional- and iGet a little attached, You hold and kiss hug
and iKiss and lick back
But even if I lick all night I dont get to the center
&she only do right its as if Heaven sent her
but maybe its the wrong address
but I keep her fly draped up in her silken Dream dress
but we already been there Lady- no need to retrogress
but your buttons Beautiful andIknow all the ones2press
Yo lips, yo hips thighs breast- eyes to eyes, mouth to neck
excuse me if I digress, pray I never cause stress I just wanna make you say “YES!”
so lets put fate to the test, if we on the same accord,
We can Release our tantra unafraid what Karma has in store
all Im askin for…is that u keep me Warm
(…Baby just keep me warm)

"@MariMolta helped me paint this"

Me, I- dont know me, so how could I kno we  ha? She high on me and life ain never smoked no weed nah. So guess its all on me now; strive wit her, fly with her or stop & let her free- How?
Cuz she smile, and I forget who I was sposed to be wow, and she wild – wastin all that Sweetness just on me child
All all up on me warm around me how Im sposed to leave now…

so we down, or up on findin Love and being free- But Baby started out a couple strides ahead of me so I bowed my head to plea-that id I bound and stretch my feet, That I’d run beside her Sun inside her shinnin just for me-I could make her just for me, its so glorious-I see but it seems Im always dark when they be shinning light for me

seems the spark it never catches- but I kindle- all I need- isA Beautiful girl with a Beautiful Soul and mind for thinking deep. Not no clone thats just like me, but we partners so we see- a Beautiful life in an ugly world but still clouds beneath our feet- there’s no barriers on me- and u welcome me to see all the madness all the Lovely things your Heart and Mind perceive

but if I cant muster up the speed to catch you, then we’ll  have to let us free


Posted: January 23, 2012 in spoken

I’d hate to play dumb and turn a blind eye to ration, but it seems in Babylon
casual sex is the fashion.

And while I’d hate to have a Heart be the casualty of my actions
Romance and Sexuality are vital interactions _
And she got me thinkin Deep reminiscin on our passion
….so I guess for a bit of focus and patience is what Im askin

and not maskin’_lust and-callin-it-Love
And not actin like cuz I never had it I dont know what it does
not slack, reocgnizing that the past forever was

There’s no reason- not to live the Truth
puppy love, infactuation are states for the youth
So itd be treason for me to let it through
and not fight for Love to the skin of my tooth

so I am not perfect and no sayer-of-sooth
but only a fool supplies the rope for makin his own noose
so if I talk it and dont walk it then whats my fuckin use…
…what the use?