The following was originally a response to a discussion on Spiriuality/Religiosity, Atheism and Agnosticism. I was informed that my use of “Spiritual Agnostic was incorrect. And was given the proper definition of the various stances on “God”:Image

I guess I’d be a Gnostic Theist.
But, I can’t commit to that because I dont believe in an anthropomorphic deity per se. There was a time when I wanted to believe in God more than I actually believed in God. As these discussions continue I feel I’m headed more back in that direction. While not nearly as extreme as a creationist, my “God” is also sort of a “God of the gaps”; where things are unknown God fills in (i.e. origins of the Universe). Although, it’s a bit more complicated.
I never like to personify God as I dont feel it is a singular being per se. I played around a lot with ideas of God and consciousness in my…early twenties, often with the company of the Lovely Mary Molta. There were interesting experiences, interesting to encounter like-minded people- be it my brother, random 5%ers, or people on YouTube with “alternate” ideas on “Divinity” and consciousness.  One more than one occasion, I was struck by the similarities between my beliefs, and those I encountered (for the first time).

One of the things that kept me from arriving at Atheism was a belief that there was evidence of consciousness beyond the physical. Much of this evidence may be anecdotal, but I always found it hard to believe that all of these people were either drastically misunderstanding their experiences or simply lying (or fabricated by the media producers). Be it people on TV, the internet, or (although 2a much lesser extent) people I personally knew I was convinced that our minds are much more complex than we know (or for some, believe).haven't read this just liked the pic:http://www.luciddreamgirl.com/the-benefits-of-lucid-dreaming/

I was always intrigued by psychics and mediums, Astral travel, and Remote viewing (which the US Government has researched and utilized for intelligence work) as well as the unfamiliar mental territory revealed through Lucid Dreaming.  To me, these things indicated something ‘beyond’. BUT- that “beyond” is up for debate. So I theorized— I communed with the ancestors and the “Gods” over the sacrament of the sages;)

Funny thing, after finding so many strikingly similar ideas, I asked myself, “Could this be “God” leading me to the answers? Is this God a being, or just a source of knowledge, consciousness? I lean towards the latter.

[sidenote sort of] I told one Facebook friend that, actually God spoke to me and told me the Bible was not the word of God(no personification there;). So I don’t “doubt his word” as she says, because “he” told me he didn’t say that shit(Those weren’t my words exactly) but unfortunately she never replied. I thought that would be an interesting point to get the word of a Christian (or Abrahamian) on. Because…idk the Bible is filled with God’s contact with Man, and I’ve known Christians to say God spoke to them, so what of my contact with God? Will you try to deny me that? Probably a futile effort that would be responded to with scripture (relevant or not- but of course not personal expression). I imagine some would take that as a joke but Im open to the possibility of….psychic revelations. But there may be a thin line between that and..just (good?) Ideas.

My faith is very much informed by ration and knowledge.

As such, I may some day, become atheist, never know. My first understanding of “Agnostic” (picked up somewhere on campus during undergrad) was one that felt unmoved, unaffected and/or unconvinced by/of the existence of God(s). Later I was given the definition of feeling that the existence of a God was simply unknowable and that God has never been revealed to humanity in any verifiable way (and never will/can be?). I believed that. I felt that there could be a God, but these people don’t have the exclusive scoop on It!

If you believe humanity literally began with two people , and the earth was made in 7 days – there’s not a lot of room for growth. I’ve been curious about the origins of the universe for some time but especially the last 5yrs or so. Theoretical Astro-physics; String theory,membrane theory, multi-verse fascinating (That’s why I LOVE Fringe btw).Image

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Our UNIVERSE could be the result of colliding membranes…where? What? We’re so fucking insignificant to the immeasurable…vastness of…Existence. Time is relative, dimensions we can’t (readily) experience o__o ? Reality is some crazy shit!

Given all that unknown – I can’t claim to know that there is or isn’t a “God”, But I do think it is knowable – even if we all kill each other before we ever find out.

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